As a seriously angst-ridden teenager, I spent a great deal of time dwelling on my feelings and thinking about my relationships with others. This manifested itself in a variety of ways – I can remember spending hours in the greeting card aisle at the local pharmacy, browsing through all the Susan Polis Schutz cards, looking for sentiments that matched my own, or, if I had time, turning the pages of her books in the hopes of finding the words that expressed how I was feeling. Like most of my peers, my moods were all over the place, and if that weren’t enough, I probably spent far too much time thinking that not only did no one really seem to notice me, but that they also probably wouldn’t notice if I wasn’t around (not that I was suicidal, because I wasn’t, but thinking in more abstract terms of simply not being there). I even wrote poems about it, poems that I’m assuming (and hoping) no longer exist.

And of course, when I wasn’t searching for the meaning of life in Susan Polis Schutz paraphernalia, I would listen to music and try to ascertain whether or not the lyrics could be applied to my own life in some context. I would analyze the words, marveling at the fact that these artists were writing what I was feeling. I would listen to the late night dedication shows, thinking about the songs that I would dedicate and to whom. When I was down, I would make sure to listen to music that best conveyed my emotions of the moment, whether they were of the “nobody understands me” variety or the “why doesn’t this person notice me” genre.

While I no longer peruse greeting cards, to this day, I still relate song lyrics to whatever happens to going on in my life. I have sent songs to friends simply because the songs reminded me of these specific individuals for any one of a multitude of reasons (such as the song “Thank You” by the South Africa-based Mozambican artist Lionel Bastos, which always reminds me of my pal NRG), and have even been known to pick up the phone to call someone because a song I was listening to made me think of them. There are songs that I can’t listen to because the images they conjure up are too difficult to bear, such as Eric Clapton‘s “Tears in Heaven“, which he wrote after losing his young son and hits far too close for home, or songs that automatically take me back to certain periods or events in my life, both good and bad (such as the Eurythmics‘ “I Saved the World Today“).

Lately, more often than not, I’ve been feeling mellow and out of sorts, as you may have guessed. And me being me, I’m trying to figure out which song from the 80s best suits my current mood. After careful deliberation, I’ve decided to go with a song by one of the best (in my opinion, anyway) groups of the era – Asia. The song is “The Smile Has Left Your Eyes”, which was released as one of the songs on the album “Alpha” in 1983.

The Smile Has Left Your Eyes
Asia

I saw you standing hand in hand
And now you come to me the solitary man
And I know what it is that made us live
Such ordinary lives
The where to go the who to see
No one could sympathize
The Smile Has Left Your Eyes
The Smile Has Left Your Eyes

And I’ve become a rolling stone
I don’t know where to go or what to call my own
But I can see that black horizon glooming
ever close to view
It’s over now it’s not my fault
See how this feels for you
The Smile Has Left Your Eyes
The Smile Has Left Your Eyes

But I never thought I’d see you
Standing there with him
So don’t come crawling back to me

Now it’s too late you realized
Now there’s no one can sympathize
Now that the Smile Has Left Your Eyes
Now it’s too late you realized
Now there’s no one can sympathize
Now it’s too late you realized
Now that the Smile Has Left Your Eyes

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